Since couple of months ago, i’ve been thinking to abandon all the life i have and going away seeking for the greater truth of existence. I mean, there are something greater out there rather than just tiny classroom on university. Lately, I discovered a word that might be picturing what I’ve been experiencing right now. The word is Antevasin, an ancient Sanskrit word that means “the one who live in the border”. It indicates the person who leave their life in order to seek enlightenment. I feel like there are something out there waiting to be discovered by me. I don’t know what it is exactly, but i know it’s there. It’s like when you gaze into night sky, and you realize when all of those stars blinking vaguely back to you, there are something greater meaning of existence rather than what we are having in everyday life. Somehow I feel like Truman Burbank in the Truman Show movie . okay, maybe not that dramatically. It feels like my day-to-day daily basis become automatic. And there’s nothing worse rather than become not aware that we are a “being” and living without meaningful experience. No matter how beautiful words are written, there would be no meaning if there is no space in between. doyouliketoreadwordswithoutspacelikethis? i need a space. i need to go.
