It's not the first time i was like this,staring at the blank in the middle of night and drowning in thought. My physical body was already exhausted,but my mind won't let me go. its too quiet, even if you listen closely you can actually hear the sound of earth rotating on it's orbit. I felt utterly alone,like i was the last person alive on Earth. I can't describe that feeling of total loneliness. I just wanted to disappear into thin air and not think about anything,it's beyond too quiet,the sky was still and steady. Silent,and keep silent. No sound of wind rustling,no sound of cricket singing. Nothing,just completely blank. Then i see something in my dark room,its seems darker than blank. Yes,it was him showing up. the other part of me.
So what's the matter with you? over thought huh?
I keep silent,it's like he can read my mind but actually yes he can,he's the alter ego,he know my self more than myself.
Well,well,well,so you're like the other people when they at your age,reckless and weak. I thought you're the toughest boy at your age.
"I don't know,maybe I'm too scare to face the future" I said.
I understand,it's normal when people at your age. But what actually you concern about? you have a great friends,a family,a bed to sleep,at least you have few things you should appreciate.
"That's it,I realize although I have those good stuff,but it will disappeared part by part. All the laughter we made will slowly fade away,sooner or later they'll live their own life,even when someday we meet again,they would never be the same like they used to be,things changes right? Let things go is the hardest part,isn't it?"
Indeed,yes it is. But that was life should be,what was born should die,what was start should finish,every hello comes with bye,every sunrise has it sunset,it called the circle of life. As I told you before,you're actually alone,they or them was temporary yours, nothing last forever remember? I hate to say this,but that's the truth,the world where we lived in is just an ordinary imperfect world not like neverland or kind of thing world where time isn't much factor. But you can keep them,in your mind, a place where memories live and breath.
I glance at him for a while,he glance at me back.
"You really know me huh?" I said.
Of course I know you. I'm your Alter Ego. He said,moving her eyes away from my glance.
Then,as usually he disappear without any traces,swallowing into the darkness of my room.
